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So Close... Yet So Far...

39 + Weeks

I really feel as I type this that there is no end in sight- which is ridiculous because the one thing for certain is that I'm not going to be pregnant much longer. It's been a hard 24 hours. I had my appointment yesterday. I eagerly awaited the news as she checked my cervix (which was so very very painful this time.) I couldn't even hold back the disappointment when she said she didn't think there was any change. How could there not be any changes?? I had two hours worth of contractions just a few days ago... surely that had to get something started? Guess not! 

I returned home with Ruthie, we ate lunch and then we both went down for a nice long afternoon nap. I think I sleep better on the couch during the day. Jon arrived home right at the end of our naps and had a fun afternoon playing with Ruthie while I made some dinner. After we cleaned up dinner and got Ruthie into bed, I tried to wind down with a hot bath before my Monday night show began. I was bummed that the entire time I tried to watch my show that I was so uncomfortable that I could barely enjoy it. After my show, I went back into the bath because that seems to be the only thing that gives me any kind of relief. It did! I got out a little bit later and started getting ready for bed. It was then that I laid on the bed praying and crying that my water would break. I waited and I waited, but nothing happened. I didn't want to feel contractions, I didn't want to have the thought... is this time it? I wanted to know without a doubt that I was on a time line. Well, as you can all guess since I'm writing a blog that my water did not break. That I didn't have any contractions that sent me into labor... and most importantly... I didn't have a baby. :( Again, I know it's coming. I know I don't have much more time... but I seriously can tell you that I was not this miserable at the end of Ruthie's pregnancy. 

So for now everyone- hold on with me as we finish up this long pregnancy journey. Pray for me. Pray for this little one growing inside me.

The Soon To Be Big Sister

Big Sister

Ruthie Mackenzie

What an amazing sweet little girl I have. She is going to be such a great big sister, I know it. With each passing day, she is getting more and more helpful with helping around the house. A lot of the time, I don't even have to ask her to put her toys away. She knows before nap, before dinner, and before bed her rooms are to be cleaned up. I especially love that she and I have special places for each of her toys and we agree on where they go!

Ruthie is having a lot of fun helping mommy and daddy prepare for her baby brother or sister. She continues to help mommy in the babies room. We talk to her often about being a big sister and how special that is. I've tried to prepare her as much as I can for when I leave for the hospital, but I don't think I can do much more. I'm sure she'll handle it a lot better than I will! Even though, I'll be exhausted and getting to know our new little one, I'm sure my heart will also be ready to come home and be with my little girl. Daddy has started to take over most of the night time routine, but I still come up to rock with her- if I don't, she tends to fuss for me an hour or so later... my oh my!

Today, Ruthie and I went to the store and bought a special book for Ruthie. I'm the Big Sister! Ruthie LOVES her new book and already we've read it 5 times and that was just before nap time!

Oh- in other news... Ruthie went outside for the first time this winter to play in the snow last Thursday! She had a blast!! We went over to the Kelches for a playdate and her and Liam went out and played in the white stuff for a little while. I snapped some pictures so I'll try and get them posted to this entry soon. Ruthie was not, however, a fan of her snowsuit. :( I think the biggest problem was the gloves. She felt trapped. Though, as soon as I placed her outside, the tears went away and she had a great time. It was a lot of fun to watch. I hope that Jon and I are able to take her out again soon. Though, I wouldn't mind if Phil the Groundhog was right and we have an early spring!! Time will tell.

A note to my sweet girl <3

Ruthie- friend/companion.
I have no doubt that you're going to be the most amazing big sister (and that says a lot since I, your mommy felt like I was up there as far as big sisters go :) ) I am so excited for you and our next chapter in this wonderful life. Know that I will be here and do my best to share my time between you and your baby brother or sister. I know in the beginning mommy will be busy nursing but I pray that during those feedings, we can set up a special time to read together or sing a fun song. <3 I know that in these next few days we are all going to go through some major adjustments, but know you are special and very very loved by all those around you. You are my first born, my precious Ruthie Mackenzie. I have very much enjoyed being your mommy for the first two most incredible years just you and I- but I know that this experience will only bring us closer. You'll have a companion. A constant friend. And even though you'll fight at times, you'll always have each others backs and that's something that is so unique and special. Cherish it my sweet one. As I write this, I remember my first letter to you. At that moment, I didn't know you but I felt like I knew you. You were this precious little baby growing inside of me that I was so eager to meet. Now, here we are... the both of us (well... the three of us... let's not forget daddy) eagerly awaiting the arrival of the new baby. How exciting! I love you sweet girl. Mommy and Daddy both love you so so much!! 


Love, Mommy

39 Weeks!!

39 Weeks

Here we are, 39 weeks and still incredibly pregnant. Yes, a blessing that this little one continues to "bake" but this mommy is ready to meet her little one on the outside- I don't think I can take much more on the inside. 

So earlier in the week I had my 38 week appointment with Dr. Stevenson. She's a great lady. I had a few concerns one being, there was a chance I was leaking my water. What I didn't know was the only way to check to make sure I wasn't leaking was to do a horribly invasive procedure. :( Yuck! Thankfully, Jon was there with me and hanging onto Ruthie. Reminding me to breathe and stay relaxed. (I appreciate you honey!) Thankfully, the end result was I was fine and the baby too! No other major concerns and we scheduled my 39 week appointment for Monday unless something happens in the meantime. I've started to believe I could be pregnant forever and that has helped to get through each passing day. 

Tuesday and Wednesday we had a horrible snow/ice storm. I thought it'd make for a great story if I went into labor on one of these two days, but no such luck. Still pregnant and going strong. I continue to feel some minor contractions here and there.  When will baby Stube be here... we shall just have to wait and see!