Beauty in the Eyes of Mourning
This has been a difficult week. Time doesn't always make losing a child easier. At the beginning of our week we had a Memorial to celebrate our precious daughter's life. At the end of our week, we were placing our daughter in the ground.
Thursday night- Ruthie wrote a sweet love note to her little sister. A simple and beautiful "I love you Malia". She placed the note under her pillow and prayed that God would take the note to Malia. I cried as I thought about the pain she'd feel if the note stayed under her pillow but also didn't want her to think if I took the note- that it was God. So, I took the note from under her pillow and sat down with her in the morning to explain how Malia was with God and she knows the greatest of loves. I also told her I took the note and put it in a special memory box for us to look back at. She smiled beautifully. My heart was calm.
Friday afternoon we spent some time letting the kids create special boxes for their sister. We thought they could each write a note and place it in the box to place it in the ground. They were so excited to work on their beautiful boxes. They each decided they'd like to keep their box.
A few moments before we started our family service on Friday, Ruthie came to me and asked if she could see her sister. I tried to say no, but she said, it's okay mom. I know she looks different but i want to hold her.
Ruthie had a few moments to hold her little sister.
She see's the beauty.
I am thankful I didn't keep this from her.
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